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DecConcern #3: Jeez I have a lot of concerns…
I feel like ass. Yeah…
It’s almost 3 in the fucking morning and I’m incapable of studying. I don’t want to sleep because then I would feel guilty for not studying. I just can’t understand why I can’t pull my shit together… I’m usually a lot better at forcing myself to do this sort of stuff, but lately I’ve just been really dgaf. I do care about my grades and everything, but I’m just lacking motivation… WHY?!
It doesn’t help that it’s raining like no other outside… not that that’s a legitimate excuse for my laziness, but i would like to think that it contributes to my mood. There’s something about the rain that makes me want to just lay outside and feel the raindrops hit my face… but then i realize it’s freezing balls outside and I would probably get pneumonia if I did that.
I’m really excited for this semester to be over!! I just need to survive the next week… FUCKING FINALS!! i hate it :/ A part of me is excited to go home and see all my old friends and everything… but then there’s a part of me that is REALLY going to miss Berkeley and my friends here and the atmosphere here and just everything here. It’s going to be nice to be able to escape all the school work, but I’m really going to miss being here.
Not to get super laaame or anything, but there’s something about this time of the year that makes me feel really sad/lonely… perhaps it’s because the holiday season is near… IDK but I do realize that in about 2.5 weeks I will be a sad/depressed mess :( Goodness, I’m a pathetic asshole. You’d think that after a year, I’d be able to say “Oh yeaah I’m fine. That shiit doesn’t affect me anymore…” but that’s not true. I’m still the same pathetic asshole I was back then. FUCK.
Kaay well tumblr has effectively distracted me from my studies [once again]. I do realize that this post is a lot more vent-oriented and whiney than usual… i apologize. I just have a lot on my mind and I wanted to get it off my chest so that I could focus on my work instead.
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Lol this is how my friends greet me. They’re great!
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celebrating pepero day with mah frand :)
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FSM
Sitting here at FSM is beautiful. I have missed Berkeley so much. Last time I was here I was...
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Even though I miss my past, I would much rather be living my future right now.
